These past few weeks have been stressful to say the least.
There are a few things I’d like to do in the games I play. In WoW I’d like to get at least one alt the legendary cloak, now that Blizzard has given a temporary nerf to the grind. I’d also like to get all my gear full 4/4 upgrades in both healing and tank specs. My healing spec has been 2/2 upgraded with a couple pieces 4/4. Tank gear isn’t really upgraded at all. So there is stuff to do in WoW. In Wildstar, my little bunny esper is chugging along at level 21. I’d like to get her to 50 by mid-July, so I can actually do the raid attunements with the rest of my guild.
But that just doesn’t seem important right now. Not even a little bit. It’s hard enough to get game time when the little booger in my uterus keeps making me fall asleep when I get home from work. It’s hard enough that the little booger makes me crave bad food which further kills off my energy. It’s bad enough that being pregnant is stressful enough, without my family being friggin’ psycho.
My grandma is 85 years old. My grandpa just celebrated his 90th birthday. Grandpa shows no signs of stopping anytime soon. Grandma, on the other hand, is. She’s been on dialysis for 20 years (which by itself is remarkable). Her heart has decided that it can no longer handle the dialysis. She’s had a series of small heart attacks, and is never going back home. My immediate family (mother, uncle, grandpa) have not been on the same page as to what to do. They’re faced with the worst decision anyone could ever have to make. And what this decision boils down to is, let her go now or later? So they’re very stressed out. Which stresses me out. To make matters worse, they’re feuding with my cousins (grandma’s niece/nephews). And because I’m close with one of those cousins, guess who’s stuck right smack in the middle?? Yep. Moar stress! RAWR!
I didn’t sleep well last night. I literally have a pain in the neck. (I need new pillows) I got very sick this morning. Some of that can be attributed to morning sickness (but 2nd trimester just started), but that is also my basic response to overwhelming stress.
I might login to WoW or Wildstar just to de-stress. But sometimes those are stressful in their own way…
(must…get….to….50….right….naow! must….upgrade…ALL THE THINGS… must…get…full…raid…group…ARGH)
Maybe I’ll just take a nap instead.